Say What Cancer? Say it isn't so.......

Today, cancer made me feel this....CANCER SUCKS!
I began to wonder today about waiting. Are we all just waiting for the news of someone we love to find out they have cancer. I thought it would not be me as for I have had enough DRAMA in my life

A couple of weeks ago the doctor mention the word cancer to me, it all start with this lump in my elbow. Then this lump in my breast and it all happened so very fast appointment after appointment. Not feeling very well for at least the last 6 months fevers, night sweats aches and pains. But as all mothers do we put it on the back burner and just go about our normal crazy schedules.

After several test and after several doctors reviewed my case, I will be going in on Friday for a lumpectomy Dr. Nolan (who I hear is fantastic) will remove the lump, the duct and surrounding tissue. While she has me open she will perform something new called Inoperative Radiation Therapy to kill any cancer cells. We will not know for sure if it is cancerous until after pathology comes back with a full report. After we have all the results there will be a team of doctors who map out a game plan if needed. I look at this as a Basketball game. I am already through the first quarter and Friday will be the second the waiting for result will be halftime the hardest time I am sure…But I already know the outcome. I will WIN this game.

The odds are certainly in my favor as this has been caught very early, I am so great for the quick actions of my doctors and for the Breast Care Clinic Team.

There is no doubt in my mind whatever the outcome will be I will be blogging this same time next week, next year and years to come.

Funny thing is I have known so many people with cancers and so many of my friends and family have already dealt with this....I am the lucky one and yet I find myself being selfish and feeling sorry for myself. First thing I thought was I would NOT make a good bald person.

As a friend of mine wrote a few month ago....

I want to take cancer and squish it in my hands and stomp on it and spit on it and bury it deep in the ground and pretend we never heard the word.

I want to thank all my friends and enemies for all the kind words and person messages of encouragement and support. I am so grateful my daughters and there strength, love and help over the past few weeks of dealing with all this craziness.