Meet with the guy who puts you to sleep luckily his name was not Dr. Conrad… (I know so not funny but I could not resist!) I warned him that after my last 2 knee surgeries I would wake up crying because he did not give me a tummy tuck….He laughed like I was joking I warned him again I would really wake up crying and upset. He said no worries I will take care of that (I was like sweet a tummy, he will take care of that but nope!)
I remember them taking me into the freezing room and strapping me down to the table yeah they should do that after they put you to sleep!! They said just count backwards from 5 and I remember getting to 3 and that was it.
I woke up much to my surprise NOT CRYING!!! I was in a little pain and grouchy! I have no family here in Utah so it was just me. No one for the Doctor to talk to and she did not come in and talk to me because she was busy with surgeries. I can remember the nurse asking my how my pain was I said it hurts she said yes the doctor took out a much bigger mass than she thought was there.
She warned me that I would more than likely feel nauseous from some inoperative radiation that they did while I was cut open. She said everyone’s bodies will react different.
It hit me more that I had expected!! I was so sick to my stomach and still am occasionally... ok all the time. I have body aches as if I had the flu and my teeth hurt. That is so weird to me that my teeth hurt but OUCH!!!
I had to get some IV fluids yesterday because I was so sick and she wanted to push the radiation out a little faster.
The Dr. looked at me and said I am so glad you are so sick; I wanted to smack her but had no energy to do so. I just started crying how dare she say that to anyone. She said that is good news that means the radiation is doing its job. I asked her more about what she saw and what she took out. She replied I took out what looks to be a non-invasive cancerous tumor more than likely a stage 1 it was bigger than I thought. But I did get all of it out as well as the milk ducts and lobules. (So basically yeah I have half a boob. I will talk more about that later!) I am thinking this is all great news and looking am looking forward to more good news later in the week. We will know for sure on wed or thurs what pathology says. Fingers crossed.
I am 32 years old (33 in 3 months) and I found it through a routine home exam and some pain in my elbow I will blog about that after while.
I thank you all for your kind thoughts messages, prayers, phone calls and all of the kindness brought to my doorstep. I ask for one favor prayers that there will be great news later in the week and I will need NO more Radiation!!
Much Love!!!
Jackie
I didn't know you were going through this. I will keep you in our prayers!
ReplyDeleteI would have never known when I met you, that you were going through all of this. You are truly an amazing person Jackie.
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